I'm back down south for the summer, in Coral Springs. It's been mostly unexciting but I think that that's okay. I've mostly just played guitar, played some cards, and played with my little cousins. In between I may have drank some coffee, whiskey, or tea. I may have smoked cigarettes, hookah, or cannabis. But mostly I've done a lot of nothing.
I wish I was in Orlando doing nothing, though, because I have maybe two friends down here to hang out with whereas I maybe have four to five friends in the Orlando and Gainesville area to hang out with. Mathematically speaking, I would be enjoying myself more in Orlando. Realistically speaking, I'd probably be doing much of the same.
I've been sort of scared to go to sleep at night because I keep having this really awful teeth clenching/sleep paralysis thing going on. No kidding though, it's terrifying. I'll be dreaming or something, and then I'll be lucid in my dream and my dream-self with shift my jaw forward or laterally with all its force and clench down on its teeth. I can then feel my actual self do the same thing, but because I am still semi-dreaming, my body is in that awkward sleep paralysis mode and I cannot unclench my jaw.
This results in me being conscious of my jaw being clenched extremely tight and forced to one side. When this happens, I either: Wake up and do my best to ignore the dull pain, or fall back asleep and wake up wondering if I was dreaming or not. Of course, I don't know if I'm dreaming or if I'm being a stupid hypochondriac Jew making mountains outta molehills. But I think it's actually happening because I feel some sort of dull pain in my jaw and I have mild headaches that could be explained away due to this.
Aside from being scared to sleep, not a lot is new.
